I was thinking about…

1…him. Someone who made me yelled last night. I didn’t know I was that angry. I yelled like a crazy woman. I was not angry. I was hurt. I was disappointed.

2…taking a break although I just had one long weekend. Greedy me.

3…her and I still am. How are you doing dear? If you see this please remember that we stand by you okie? I wanted to call you but I was afraid that you are not ready to talk.

4…dinner for tomorrow. Fried Tom-Yum Vermicelli? Fried rice with prawn or just plain rice with 2-3 dishes? Car-rie what you feel like eating tomorrow?

5…Yoppo. When is he coming in to the room? In the living room, is he playing game or watching telly?

6…teeth brushing. Okay it reminds me that it is about time to sleep. Also it is a good excuse to distract him and get him.

7…Jay Chou. Where is he now? Has he left Australia?

8…calling home. Action is more louder than words. Yes I’ve got the phone in my hand.

Dear my birthday boy…

1…Happy Birthday!

2…Was I the first to wish you this year? Your coughs woke me up last night and I wished you, remember?

3…Is this the first birthday we celebrate together since our marriage? Or is this the second? Do we count from the ROM in Australia or Malaysia? You decide.

4…Whats your birthday wish? Was I ever in your wishes?

5…I wish you happiness and joy in every single day.

6…May all your wishes come true. *pray hard for you* ^.^

7…I am just glad to share special occasions like this with you.

8…I know we will many more years of birthday celebrations to come. I love you.

When I’m home, I never missed…

1…talking with my grandma and sleep at least one night with her.

2…early jog and breakies with my parents.

3…’Chow Kuew Tiao’ in a food court named ‘Old Place’.

4…talking with our dog, Coco. She is a good girl.

5…striving chance to go to grandpa’s graveyard.

6…hibernating at my brothers’ room, although sometimes it may seems that I am unwelcomed. :p

7…going out working for my dad. Apparently I am pretty good at it. *Woohoo*

8…buying afternoon teas for all my aunties who stay nearby my home.

Epilogue of the day…

1…A voice message was recorded on my 3G number. I only found that out when I was back here. The message was dated on 29/01/2009 the wedding day. It was from Dad. *surprise surprise*

2…Internet saved our marriage! Reservations, wedding favors, card prints, follow-ups and etcetera were all made via Internet. It was multiple mouse clicks that made the wedding.

3…It was moderately satisfying to self-sponsored the day.

4…I felt sorry of missing out thanking my precious friends on the day. Friends made me a person. Friends brought me here. Quintessentially thanking them is inside me.

5…I am new to a family. He is new in my family.

6…We had liquors in our hands but we hardly drink a glass. We were being pushed, we did it…by lip-touching on the glass. Woohoo. I was safe! He was safe! *Sorry Han for telling you that was white wine!* *Oopps!*

7…I love everyone. I love my family, my new family, my relatives, my friends, the guests, the waiters, the waitresses, and all.

8…It feels good recalling the prelude, interlude and the conclude of the day.

On our wedding day (II)…

1….The groom was nerdily attempting to memorise every mandarin words for his speech in the lounge room. With the cheat sheet on his hand, he was pacing. I know I should have been more encouraging. I said that all words were out-of-tune.

2…One minute before the march, Dad was not happy about the decision of playing the slide shows first. He doesn’t like to wait. He thought that was a waste of time.

3…Under the spotlight, in the march, my heels can’t stopped stepping on the dress. My limbs were like broken branches after the storm. Dress was too long, heels were too high…and i sucked big time! Fortunately, Dad (my hero!) waved to Peng and got her saved my night!

4…An unplanned surprise from someone in Brisbane. He specially made us a photo story. As the film rolled on, my hearts melted.

5…My cousins, my dad, and my siblings went up to stage to sing. They might not be the greatest song in the word but they were definitely the sweetest tune that I heard in my life.

6…On the dining table, “I always wanted to call Dad. Can I address your Dad my Dad now?”, he asked. I realized his wish in an instant. No magic wand.

7…I thanked every table f guests when we proposed the toast. I can’t say enough of thanks.

8… I call it a night to remember.

No more to be under to spotlight. Some others are better kept for private purpose. *cough*

On our wedding day (I)…

1…I woke up at 6 am to kick off the day. That also means I only slept for 3 hours.

2…Dad has no idea about that bouquet of flowers has to give to the groom. He brought back from the florist and indeed handed it to me. It was funny.

3…I heard them coming, from upstairs I could see him going neighbors to neighbors, I waved wanted him to see me but I then felt fortunate that he didn’t.

4…While I was anxiously (not!) waiting in the room, at times no one was with me. I knelt down to the ground and prayed to GOD and Grandpas. I always hope they heard me.

5…I drove and picked Jackson from the airport with the deco-ed wed car! I can tell how shock he was from his i-cannot-believe-this-looks.

6…I heard my siblings, cousins were practicing singing-a-song for us while I was in bath. It was a feeling that I always felt. My tears came up in my eyes, which then mixed in the shower. It was that moving.

7…I know what I was doing. My mind was crystal clear. Few hours before the dinner I was still working on the slide shows. I was impressed. *yay!*

8…Confetti in the second march-in made me feels like I was in a dream or something. I wish that march never ends but it has to be as it will leads me to a beginning.

and 8 is never enough. Couple more yet to come…

Before our wedding day…

(although this appears to be slightly out to date. :p)

1…it was Chinese New Year! We didn’t care much about the wedding as we enjoyed too much as a family for CNY. Well that was the prime purpose of having our wedding on CNY anyway.

2…we drove through and forth to the airport for many many times. It is a new record in my life.

3…I played a lot with my cousin Didi. There is a language barrier between us as he doesn’t really speak. I made him loves me. Woohoo. He was super duper shy each time he came over but not this time because the power of love is magical.

4…Ah Toy puked in the couch like no one cares. He was so drunk and it is all caught on the tape. Haha. *evil us*

5…the bridesmaids deco the wedding car, started to bully best mans, and they assisted me in every thing they can. *Thank you all*

6…Yoppo and I still seeing each other until midnight. Who cares? Haha. And that night I was still on the road, driving around to get my uncle something from 7-eleven. (Jas caught me running around!)

7…I stayed awake till 3 am to finish up our first and second match-in sideshow. Too much hands on for the bride! And it is too late to complain. Haha.

8…love is in the air. Everyone is in love. Good to see everyone is in love in every way. *love*

Super…

1… envy of people who has friends, who can cook, who communicates well, who owns freedom, who are rich, who are capable, who are pretty. Seeing these peoples make you figure where you stand. *Nowhere to stand for charlene* Haha.

2… heartwarming each time seeing Yoppo waving hi to me in a distance from the moment I walk out of gym.

3… proud of Carrie for cutting me a fantastic v-shape hair. *Thankooo Car-rie”

4… indulge in cooking curry nowadays. Three of us tried, succeeded, failed, and tried again. It is like a contest or challenge for yourself and you don’t want the urge to stop.

5… love rugby. I felt cold, sweat in my palm, heartbeat went fast when watching Broncos, Maroons, or Kangaroos in the field.

6… desperate for a target. But what is that gonna be? I don’t know.

7… miss my family. I miss grandma, dad and mom, jie, kor, peng, li, soon lee, shean, bb, and all. I can’t wait for October to come.

8… thirsty now. Where is my drink?

Whoa…

1… finally here comes the A$900 stimulus package from the government!

2… my best friend li ping is a beauty! I flipped through some photos that were taken on her wedding day, gosh, she is no doubt the prettiest.

3… guess who’s coming to town? Jay Chou! Outdated me only got to know this last week.

4… the online game Pipes so addictive. It spices up our night life too much that I got several sleepless nights.

5… I swore at work last week! Whoops! I thought she was arrogant so…I swore in whisper.

6… I cook chicken curry on my own! Twice in a week! It tastes alright I thought, not spicy but.

7…Whoa! Whoa! The magnificent seven! *cheers for Locky!!!*

The magnificient seven

8… Kangaroos Australia won the Test Match!!! Woohoo!

What…

1… I want now is home.

2… a recession. *worry* but *stay positive*.

3… about us? Hey you stop behaving like a child, self-pity and act like as if the entire world owes you a thing. If you want attention, you have the attention. Oh come on, we given up our intimacy, privacy, live-together, and savings to our dreams. Go ahead, go tell the world what people do to you. But let me know, what about us?

4… can drug, binge drinking, or cigarettes do to you? Everyday I see the commercial ad on telly about that. It is really sad to see someone lost their life to it.

5… does a branded handbag do? Is it a fashion icon, an icon to show your status or it is really very nice to use ? Well obviously I don’t have one and I probably don’t need one. So thieves, don’t rob me because I am not rich.

6… about me? It isn’t fair. I have had enough now I want my share. Can’t you see I wanna live. But you just take that more than you give… - Shannon Noll-

7… a doofus thinking. What a nuisance thought. What a dopey me.

8… you say probably will never be important because like Gracie quoted,

Never explain yourself to any one.

Because the person who likes you doesn’t need it.
and the person who dislikes you won’t believe it.

. So yes, that is so true.