It went well

I had many interview practices with Yoppo before we went on bed last night. I did not have a good night sleep and woke up many times in the night. Came up to pee for four times, rolled on the bed and scratched my heads for many times.

Woke up at 6 am ++ and get myself ready. It has been about 1.5 years that I never put on formal wear. I wore in casual when I worked for MYOB. I put on some basic make up and then woke Yoppo up. He took half day leave today and drove me there.

It took us some time to find the Technology Office Park. I was super gan zheong and my hand cant stop sweating.

I waited for the CEO to come and I almost fall asleep (due to lacking of sleeping hours last night). The interview doesn’t took me long time. It was just 30 minutes? or maybe less than that?

Seriously, this is the first time I had job interviews with caucasians. My heart is beating uncontrollaby fast as if it gonna pop-up in any other minutes. Fortunately, my heartbeat goes back to normal after the 30 minutes.

It went well I would say. I have got the offer.  ^.^ Feel thankful.  I am not sure when could I get the visa which allows me to work. I hope they can wait.

Si Lai

I am currently a blur Si Lai*, an apprentice in cooking, and an all-rounder-in-housework-to-be.

There was one day I kept the water boiling on a pan and I went to do other stuffs. I thought it was kinda smart act because I can multitask!!!Woohoo.

Minutes passed. Yoppo asked, “You heard something?”

I said no. Then I went for a shower. While enjoying myself in the hot bath, I remembered what did I do prior to the bath.

Then I screamed from the bathroom.

Me: “Yoppo!!! Yoppo!!! Help me to turn off the gas!!! Quick Quick!”

Wah, at the moment, I became a super nervous Si Lai. Done my bath, dressed up in the five minutes later. Dashed to the kitchen and too bad…the pan is already dried up and black in color. I am fortunate to say that was only water on the pan, I can’t imagine what would happen if that was oil boiling on the pan.

I feel very bad. Yoppo must be dissapointed. I learnt something from that incident. I don’t bother about the efficiency in cooking now. Safety is on priority. And that’s why now I called myself an apprentice in cooking.

*Si Lai = Housewife in cantonese

I owe him a…

Few nights before his birthday, he told me that he made reservation for a table for two on 29th June 07. When the day comes, he asked me to wear more because he did not want me to catch cold. Well, that’s pretty understandable as it is winter now and we were heading to Gold Coast for the dinner.

We headed to Gold Coast at about 4pm. Had a walk and sight-seeing in Gold Coast till 8 pm. Then he drove me to Marine Mirage. It’s a waterfront shopping and dining destination. I thought we gonna have a fine dining there or something.

While we walking and me having no idea where the restaurant is, a women showed up.

Women: “Mr Benson and Miss Charlene?”

I nodded. She shook our hands. Then she brought us to a Gondola. I was like shocked because I did not know we gonna have dinner in a little cruise.

The gondolier greets us and set the dinner. The women that I just mentioned just now snapped a few shots for us while I was trying to survive from the shock.

Gondolier went to his cabin, get the engine started and our 1.5 hours journey starts! When we had our dinner done,   Yoppo asked me if he can get his birthday wish come true. He told me that I can make his wish come true. That was funny because I ain’t the fairy, I don’t hold a magic wands or something similar.

Yoppo:”Will you marry me?”

Me:”Aey? You never kneel down geh?”

Yoppo:”Okay Okay.”

There is a limited space for anyone to kneel down in the Gondola. He knelt but that was amusing.

Till today, the question is left unanswered. I owe him a yes…or it might be no. :p I probably miss home too much?

Trust me, I love him.

  

Dog

Once I called back home, my auntie asked me why I not answering Yoppo on certain thing. She asked if I don’t love Yoppo.

She got it all wrong. I love Yoppo but I thought myself as a dog.

Dogs leaves the owner when they know they are dying. Dogs do not want to burden or make their owner feel sad.

In this love, I would rather be a dog. Maybe I am an useless one?

Maid in hires

He has most of the things he needs. He needs a maid I suppose.

Criterias for the maid:

1. Wakes him up. Formal suits for the day must be hung at somewhere reachable.

2. Made breakfast and place them in tupperware.

3. Do laundry.

4. House cleaning. This includes vacuuming, bedsheets changing, dishes washing and you name it.

5. Dinner preparation and cook. Cook more for his tomorrow’s lunch. No spicy food if possible.

6. Fold and place pyjamas on the bed so when he comes back he knows where to get them.

7. Lists on-going.

You don’t need to talk. He has someone who shares common thinking and interest with him.  You may not need to love him because he already has maternal love and siblings-love. All you need to do to yourself is inject self-esteem-vaccine for yourself. This is the only way to boost your confidence.

If you want to cry, cry silently or you can cry in the toilet. Make yourself like you’re home.

Anyone who’s interested please call the current maid Charlene at +61405449404.

I am mad at myself!

Last night before we sleep, Yoppo and I talked about the letter of good conduct*. I applied for it few weeks ago and I haven’t heard from my parents of receiving it. It worries me a bit as I need the document for my visa application.

So we called Ministry of Foreign Affairs Malaysia today. They keep transferring the calls and that’s real agitating. After many transfers, someone told us that it is approved BUT i don’t have a self-address envelope with sufficient stamps attached. They can’t send me the document because they don’t have the envelope.

I am mad at myself because I don’t understand how could I missed tiny details like this. I shouldn’t make a mistake like that. Now, to get the document, I either must ask someone in KL collect for me or snail mail them a self-address envelope with sufficient stamps.

If small things like this I cannot even handle it, which company in the world will give me a job? *dissapointing*

*letter of good conduct: Sijil Kelakuan Baik

Moved!

For the past few days I cleaned up the balcony, fridge, blinds, washroom, oven, walls, living room, and all sort of cleanings human can do.

Last night Yoppo and I have moved to Indooroopilly. Quite a strategic place, near to train station, the shopping mall and ultimately peng peng.

I am sure I need time to adapt to this new house. If I can adapt in one day or two, then I wouldn’t be here. I am writing this entry in QUT’s computer lab.

 Yoppo is in his lecture class now (Energex pays for his master course) and I am here since 9am. I do not want to stay at the new house alone.

 Can’t believe that I have been sitting down here since 9am. Once he finish the 8 hours lecture, then I can go enjoy Friday night already. Yay!

A place that I don’t belong (yet)

This is the second week I been here. If you ask me do I wish to go back home, without hesitation I will answer, “Yes it came across my mind not just a single time.”

I know I have made the decision to be here and thereafter, I am ought to have responsibility to keep the decision remain unchanged. Hmmm, like not giving up easily?

There was one day I went to city to meet Yoppo during his lunch time. When I reached central station, I did not see him. It was fine and I walked to the traffic light to see if he was there. There were crowds. My heart was beating real fast. I called Yoppo but they became missed calls. I initially stood by the crowds. But I would never thought the frets in me enough to made me slowly backed off to further and further. My feet were uncontrollably pulling myself off far from the crowd.

When I look back, I feel that is funny because I shouldn’t act like a kid. I must be chee sin or something. But seriously, I am scared at that moment and I almost shed in tears.

And same goes to mundane life. I don’t talk with anyone. Not I egoistic or something (I have nothing to be ego of), I lost the guts the talk with any other ones. That sounds funny too right? Like yesterday when the job agent called, I know I need to talk so I picked up the guts to reply her. I made it but my voice was trembled. My words are not well-combined and I was soft. I am not sure if the lady can understand me. Over the other side of the phone, I think she might think I am a language-handicapped.

What happened? I used to speak fine (Ya, just fine I would say) English with my ex-managers, colleagues and some friends. I do not even have the guts to say “Thank You” to people now. I just smiled. I must be look stupid with that fake smile.

I do feel that it would be more secure, useful, and contributing if I am back in Malaysia. But well…that’s just a thought.

Something that made my day!!! Woohoo!!!

Something that made my day:

1. Peng Peng passed the exams with flying colours. I am so proud of her.

2. My cousin brother, Elgin requested extra tickets for peng, li and me to attend his convocation.

3. Got a call from a job agent. It boost up self-confidence a bit. God knows that my confidence went invisibly deep down. She asked me to call back when I got my visa approved. It might be good or bad but that’s fair enough. I am contented.

4. Been interacting with a kelantanese friend. Didn’t know that we can talk so much in a single day. Will probably have a meetup on Saturday?

5. Grateful to have Yoppo’s companion in house inspections today. He took an hour off from work just now so he will be home late today. I will be at home and waiting. ^.^

6. It’s family day! Will be talking with mom and dad later liao! Yay!

7. I never eat a lot today. Hey winter time ler…I eat less is a good sign. Haha.

*Feel loved*

Love-Handicapped

Yoppo just called and told me that the application made to a house lease in Indooroopilly was unsuccessful. I can sensed his disappointment from his voice. My heart sinked too.

We went for a few house inspections last week. Yoppo took a week off and so we have plenty of time in doing it. We did not see any that could attracts so much until the house inspection on last weekend. We really like the place. Not only it is strategic, but also affordable to us. We were the first to do the house inspection and were also the first who applied. We have high hopes into getting it and been fingers crossed for it. I fervently pray for it too.

But we didn’t get it. This means that we have to do more house inspections and send in applications. When I heard Yoppo’s voice through the phone, I know he feels dissapointed too. I feel so useless and I feel like a love-handicapped. I do not know what can I do to help. I don’t want him to have so many things to worry about. I don’t want him to feel any pressure.

I really really really hope I can do something for him.