1… to 9 countries, says Charlene. No I never. It was like a self-comfort after skimming through scenery that Deanne photographed in her Europe trip.

2… swearing. Nobody cares but I do.

3… eye-rolling, as if that would help me in achieving something.

4… reading. Obviously reading doesn’t tame my language and my eyes.

5… doodling. Most of times I can’t figure what was I doing.

6… OT-ing. Once in a blue moon doesn’t hurt.

7… hearing, but not listening. I look like as though I am listening but I am not.

8… catering. I am a home cook who provides same set of lunch and dinner to him.

1… On the first day of my holiday, a stranger who lives in our place came up to me claiming that she unexpectedly pregnant. It was spine-tingling as she recites. I felt like I was abandoned in a cul-de-sac, where I had nowhere to turn to. In the aftermath I can’t figure if it was a truth or a lie. I probably have lost all my tears and energy to believe again.

2… My uncle gets Bay (New nickname of his) and I to run a day of childcare on his son. It was fun but it was certainly hard to deal with especially when my cousin doesn’t speak at all.

3… I went back to school to support my cousin in a basketball match. It was nerve-wracking from the start to end. As our school lost the match, ridiculously my uncle and someone from school in the opposite (the opponent) ended in a brawl. It was shitty after all.

4… I was put in the front desk as the receptionist on my cousin’s wedding. I had no idea what I was I doing. I didn’t know 95% of the guests. I was mostly not able to find their names from the list. It was a chaos that you’ll never want to be in.

5… I drove from Penang to Ipoh, Ipoh to Penang, and Ipoh to KL in storms. It is not something I do everyday. I should say I haven’t been driving ever since I was here. I grasped the wheel so firm like koalas clings to the trees.

6… Bay and I went for a hike in Perak Cave. Do we call that a hike? I don’t know. The stairs are small, molded, and slippery. It was not easy but I would jot it an achievement as he has minor acrophobia.

7… Tummy-ache attacks everyday after the holiday. It comes and it goes. It is going through a jet-lag.

8… A training session to be performed for about 15 pax. I am bitten off bit by bit. I can’t breathe.

1… Put a smile on my face. I haven’t been able to do that since the week started, and it doesn’t seems to get any better.

2… Learn to stand my ground. I must pick that up quickly enough that I can smugly speak for myself. You know what, as the deadline approaches, someone in the team went panicky then put me on a blame. Hey, that was not nice. Not at all.

3… Finish my work by end of the week. Let a forced miracle (the cut-off) happens.

4… Book to be returned to the library. I don’t want to get charged for an overdue.

5… Perhaps another pre-birthday celebration, although I already had one with Jas & Rui last weekend. Not planned but we’ll see.

6… Breakie and fruits to be prepared for the flight.

7… Pack. Started a bit but lost interest in no time.

8… Fly home. The only thing that can make me smile.

1…to Christmas. 99 sleeps away. Hey! Why not make it a hundred for Boxing Day! I love Boxing Day.

2…to handover the checkup recommendation form to DOC. I feel fine (for now) so bring it on!

3…to hear from the agent once more. We knew that the offer we gave was a long shot. Getting him to call us now is fanciful, would it?

4…to a satisfying breakfast. I am almost done with peanut-butter on multigrain breads. *burps*

5…to hear their says and have my says on the performance reviews.

6…to the next plasma donations scheduled on 05/10. I should probably cancel it, should I? My pulse can’t tell a porky pies anyway.

7…to the the next gym session although my knees are killing me softly.

8…to be home. A rough ball park is 31 days and 55 minutes. Hooray!

1…I broke a glass. Whoopsie.

2…I was deferred from plasma donations AGAIN! They say there are missing heartbeats. Irregular pulse. Blah Blah Blah. Codswallop I say.

3…Finding my soul is like chasing a rainbow. But yes I am getting there.

4…It is tad tough believing that 30 tasks are coming on my way. I have too much on my plates.

5…We doubt if there is a minuscule chance in winning the race.

6…Ought to spend some money now on medical check. Ouchhhh in my pockets.

7…Mastering Curtis Stones recipes in one try is a dupe. Too much nitty-gritty for me to handle. I tried several times but it is not getting any easier.

8…Time flies. Hitting the sack in 5. Good night.

1…I am in a terrific good mood. What else. WOW Broncos!

2…I have an interview on Sunday.

3…I ate so much that I don’t remember what I’ve eaten and I have been letting fluffy off the chain all night!

4…I learned something today. Which is better. To look rich but poor or to look poor but rich. I let you mull over but I’ve got my answer.

5…My senior went off for one month holiday. I see the responsibility with a ray of light in myself.

6…The weather is unpredictably odd recently. Heat waves in Winter, sound bizarre ay? We are alright with it besides start having fan running at night….already!

7…Soon I will find my soul. I felt absolutely hollow, like a tree without the inside. It has been faffing around for a while but now I am positive. I am getting there.

8…Here you go! My favourite commercial advertisement. Imagine they do different one each year ever since long long time ago. I have no idea when. Wait…before you get me wrong, I love their spirits, the lyrics and the song. I have not called Australia home (Not yet!). Haha.

All the sons and daughters
Spinning around the world
Away from their family and friends
But as the world gets older and colder
Its good to know where your journey ends

So when is my journey ends ar?

1…Having you here I call it a journey. I learnt who you are and you too learnt who I am. You see who I am behind the masque and I see yours too.

2…I am sorry for my stupidity, farcical selfishness, and my frigging emotions.

3…I am learning to become a better person and you know that. Please do forgive me for my mistakes.

4…You and I know there were certainly joy, differences, laughs, conflicts, and bonds between us.

5…my chatterbox, thank you for all of the daily updates/stories/talks. They are irreplaceably cool. Those are too interesting that we both know Benson can’t do what you can.

6…You’ll be missed. I mean it.

7…We love you.

8…Keep the cliche with you. When there is a will, there is a way.

1…For second stage of my visa application, I have to write lines about our living arrangements. Time is ticking away as it had to be embroider into a nicely-written essay. Is it likely to get it accomplished on this lovely Sunday? Let’s just say I am ambivalent.

2…Most probably I have to work long hours in coming week. I don’t mind working weekends like last week, but long hours on weekdays? I think I will be so puffed.

3…everyday I am feeling somewhat unnerved and intimidated. I am a somebody within myself but no body in here.

4…my favorite rugby club marked their worst loss in history yesterday. A bit jaded I am, but hopeful.

5…I can’t seemed to stop myself from having peanut butter on multi grain bread every morning. I officially give up.

6…It is so hard to socially catch up. Everyone has facebook but I am nowhere near. I don’t belong there and that is mortifying.

7…I cannot see myself anymore. I am puzzled. I am empty. I am getting smaller. I am invisible.

8…babe you made me feel awful in an unspeakable way. I am doing nothing in here but you are working hard at the other side. Yes I get it. *Kicking my ass*

1…breads I ate last week? Twenty-Four. It just sounds like I was left ravenous for weeks and I had to eat that much of starch!

2…weeks ahead of me for my next blood/plasma donation (after seriously being deferred twice in a year of my low iron-level)? No more! I went early this month and woohoo…I passed all tests! Worth celebrating, yes?

3…kilograms more I will have to shred? Will there ever be an answer?

4…thoughts of you when you were not here? Many, dear. I was worried about you.

5…times I doubt myself? Hell I don’t want to be reminded.

6…winter nights I had to cuddled myself at the corner of the bed without the blankets? Countless. Benson Heng you are the blame. You pulled all the blankets.

7…fruits I ate today? Three. Apple, Watermelon and Grapes. Vege? Nil.

8…fingers count away to be home? I miss everyone.

1…him. Someone who made me yelled last night. I didn’t know I was that angry. I yelled like a crazy woman. I was not angry. I was hurt. I was disappointed.

2…taking a break although I just had one long weekend. Greedy me.

3…her and I still am. How are you doing dear? If you see this please remember that we stand by you okie? I wanted to call you but I was afraid that you are not ready to talk.

4…dinner for tomorrow. Fried Tom-Yum Vermicelli? Fried rice with prawn or just plain rice with 2-3 dishes? Car-rie what you feel like eating tomorrow?

5…Yoppo. When is he coming in to the room? In the living room, is he playing game or watching telly?

6…teeth brushing. Okay it reminds me that it is about time to sleep. Also it is a good excuse to distract him and get him.

7…Jay Chou. Where is he now? Has he left Australia?

8…calling home. Action is more louder than words. Yes I’ve got the phone in my hand.